A blank page.
There’s the application of energy and emotion waiting to be transferred into words and meanings.
A communication for expression.
But alas at much as I feel the urge, the struggle is high.
I don’t want to write something upsetting, and its so much harder to channel higher energies on paper.
I remembered what I wanted to write about now:
Intimidation – Are men really intimidated by women so much, is it an epidemic? I hear the terms everywhere, Feminisms first port of call is that they shouldn’t lower themselves down to men who are intimidated by them. Apparently it’s been a historic phenomena – Witches burnt for intimidation.
Jordan Peterson talks about men’s need to conquer the dragon – the Serpent – the female mystique, the energy, death itself. Women represent death to men.
Nowadays, men are even further intimidated by women – women must work as men. Toiling, labouring. Earning money, having jobs/careers, driving, buying houses etc. not having a man to save them.
So the question is: What do women do in this instance?
I asked my older man friend Nick who is sort of like a wierd dad figure..
I ask him, what can I do to make myself less intimidating. He says; you don’t.
Which is all very dreamy and idealisitic but I calculated that I have 15 months in order to find someone, marry them, move in with them and become pregnant in order to have a child before 30.
I dont have the pleasure of being all high and mighty, calling men lame for being nervous.. i need to give them all the help they can get.
As long as they are of good moral fibre, dedicated, honest, principled, attractive, and loving then I know I would be very happy with my choice.
Have I encountered a man who finds me attractive but can’t stand to meet the dragon…
What does one do in this situation, maybe it is wrong to help a man..
Maybe that is a man’s mission and if I help him then I ruin his manhood and his ability to do anything..
I’m not sure…
I need to do more research on this – the story is not over yet…
–Next endemic for discussion – Commitment phobia. Nats, men and women.